Now I can create change

   

       During the course of the semester I have learned a lot about my own invisible narratives and myself. Looking back at my first paper I can see that I have my own invisible narratives that I had never really noticed. For example during my first written assignment I wrote about how I believe in hard work and that hard work truly pays off. I feel like I created the idea that if you don’t work hard that you shouldn’t have things go your way. Also I made it seems like people that give up when things get tough are weak. That people who aren’t really strong or capable shouldn’t even be in the game and are just taking up space. This isn’t a good mindset and I didn’t even realize that this was my mindset. But that isn’t the way way I want to view things. Another invisible narrative I found about my self and my ideas is the fact that I believe heavily on evidence and that’s why I believe in science and disagree with some of the things the bible says in its text.

      All of this made me realize that I am pretty mean and come down with a very hard opinion about others and their way of thinking. Although some of the invisible narratives that I carry within me are somewhat bad they are ultimately what have shaped me and I don’t think I’m in bad shape. I do admit that I am a bit judgmental and can be harsh at times because of my views of the world. These narratives can affect me as well as others and that can really take a toll on my career choice since I have the dream of becoming a doctor.

     As a doctor I will encounter various people with different points of view that wont always match up with my ideologies and I have be able to provide the best care to all people and out aside my view to ensure good health to my patients. I really need to work on my own views and invisible narratives before I can even start working as a doctor and I’m not exactly sure how I would do that.

     I ultimately do want to reduce the impacts these narratives have on people around me and as well as the effects they have on me. In class we have learned about oppression and both sides of this. I don’t want to be an oppressor and I feel like I can lower the impact of my narrative and ideas on others by simply stopping and thinking about how not everyone is like me and that’s what makes the world so beautiful. The worlds diversity is what makes the world such a wonderful and interesting place. To reduce the effects f my own narratives on myself I feel like I need to more open minded to the opinions and views of others because that can help me change my views for the better to make me a better-rounded person.

      The invisible narrative you carry within you can really shape the type of person you are and how you interact in society and without even thinking you can really affect others with your invisible narratives. But the best way I can personally fix the impacts of my narratives on others is like I explained above to simply learn to love differences and respect them as well. English 214 was different, it like was like no English class I have ever taken and this was honestly one of the few classes that helped me learn something about my self. I’ll miss you English 214.